Fathers day is right around the corner. My birthday is right around the corner. My transday is right around the corner(the day i start hormones). so many things are happening in the next couple of months.

this coming fathers day is going to be the first fathers day where i'm going to be truely comfortable with myself. not just being a father but myself, i'm going to be comfortable with myself and myself being a father. it'll be the first fathers day where i'm not worried about the outcome of anything. but even though it'll be a fathers day that marks a first for me it begs the questions: 

What kind of father will i be? 

What kind of father am i? 

some of you will say that i'm a great father and that i will be a great father. I'm not going to argue that, i'm going to get a little cocky and just say that i KNOW i'm a great father and i'm a hell of a lot better than my own.

but what i meant by the questions is whether or not kelso will see that. I'm going to begin my transition, i'm going to begin becoming a woman soon. It all starts july 16th. My worst fear is the day kelso wakes up and doesn't see his father anymore. the day he doesn't see his daddy. the day he sees a stranger. 

it bugs me to no end. will he forever resent me for doing this to him? will he hate me? will he still let me be his dad? whats going to happen?