this will all be worth it.

=(

Let death take me in my sleep, for my will is too strong for it to take me while I'm awake.

i'm in love.

oh, don't ever get a tattoo on your wrist, IT'S A BITCH.

nigga whhhhhat

She sang to me tonight, it blew my mind. I was speechless. funny part is that she wasn't trying though, it wasn't her best, it wasn't what i heard at parties. It was different, it was pure.

it made me feel good. it made me realize all over again why i fell in love.
as such is every morning i wake up, just a reminder of falling in love.

oh the sun shines in the window? ah that's why im in love.
what? my engine roars down the road? oh yea, she used to sit next to me.
oh, hey darwin. oh that's right, you remind me of your mommy
need to put my pants on? ah, reminds me of the time that she...wait too much detail.
shoes? pshhh....well, they tend to remind me of socks and smelly feet, not her...but whatever, you get the point.



btw laura. i got it.

My dream girl is a girl that can sing.

andd...my favorite tonight.

my "friends" make me mad.

i'm so glad i have you.

fuck them.

im starting to second guess my decision.

cars are my thing, but was it worth ridding myself of the opportunities that i had in a real college?

i miss the big class rooms, i miss the college atmosphere, i miss the friends, i miss cheap food because of the cheap atmosphere, i miss big tv's in lounges...even though i never used them.

i miss college. did i make the right choice..?

No, this trick won't work... How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?

what the hell? i like!

i woke up and found a button with your name on it
put it in my pocket and sealed it with a kiss and a ticket on a nuclear rocket
caught the bug in hte air and ran around in circles with my arms out yelling iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii don't caaaaaaaaaaaaareeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


i'm in love.

Surrriously.. seriously!

She made me two rice crispy balls today. One was original, one was peanut butter flavored....the peanut butter flavored one had too much peanut butter. I feed the middle to Darwin and ate the chocolate...she ate most of the original. =( that was my favorite.

But, it's okay. It's finally okay. I love her...and i'd probably give the last bit of my most favorite food in the world to her if it made her smile...and the best part of it all?

She'd probably give it right back to me.

Pound for pound
Inch for inch
finger by finger
i'm purely, wholeheartedly, utterly convinced that she's that one girl that visits me at 2 AM because she's lonely and just wants to be with me, she's that one girl who even though she's only 5' tall STILL tries to carry me when im down. You know why i'm so utterly convinced that she has to be that girl?

because she so utterly and completely already is that girl.

mmmmm.

=)

arizona or bust! i won't be gone for long....i promise.

Fuckit, i'll steal the concept.


"i wanna love that makes me regret how small my hands are
i mean hte lines of my palms don't gimme enough time to love you as long as id like to type of love."

-Shihan

i wanna love that makes me question where you are when I'm alone type love,
the love that makes me imagine your face even though i haven't met you yet type love.

Music gets in my way when i'm trying to be something other than what i am. It prevents me from sharing my knowledge with nobody, and forces me to speak my mind to the masses. Music embodies the soul that I have held down since i was a child and makes it course through my veins. Music centers my eyes when I'm lopsided with the misinformation that i take in daily, and balances my mind when i offset it the moment i wake up. Music is my memory on crack, yet it never lets me memorize lyrics because there is so much to take in at one time, from the snares, the offbeat lyrics, the airhats, the melody and the voice speaking each word; it becomes hard to take in all of it, and repeat it with precision. yet i can play it in my head without persuasion. Music sets me apart from the evil that comes through the stereo drums beats minds lyrics soul finds me and i end the paragraph on a good note.

Dreams

I had a horrible dream last night, it seriously bothered me hardcore. It scared me, to the point that I honestly felt like crying. So i picked up my phone to call somebody who i was sure would listen...but decided not to. It was 4 AM and i was sure she'd be sleeping...so I just laid there, thinking....i eventually fell asleep tho.

.......


edit: 02/10/08
Sometimes i find it hard to fathom the amount of stress you put on yourself, what with the juggling of the trust that so many people put in you, the amount of joy you bring to so many different people and the connections that you helped keep alive between people, even the connections that formed purely because....well, because we are friends with you. sometimes, its hard to imagine what goes on in that mind of yours, and it kinda scares me what you do to people...how happy you make people. the sad part of this all is that, i dont' think you know how much each and every one of us appreciate your friendship, and i can speak for more than one person when i say that if one day you were to just disappear...that things would be pretty damn bleak.

hmm..why am i writing this? i'm not quite sure...i think i just wanted to say thanks.

thanks laura.

there's a reason you are THE laura.

the lip.

IS PIERCCCCCCED