"It feels as if you had a menu in hand and anxiously, hungrily waited for 20-something years, then when the universe came over to take your order, you didn’t have the slightest clue what you want."

well fuck. 
what.
how. 
ugh.
I don't know how to feel. This is so...normal. how has this become so normal? I have no idea what i'm doing. Am i making the right decision? am i making the wrong decision? am i doing this the right way? am i doing this all wrong? 


ugh.